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Praise the Lord I have a 95% chance of getting hired by Wal-Mart for the summer! A lady at my church works there and is in charge of hiring. She told me that she'd definitely pull up my application and call me on Monday! Here are my two worries: 1) I have to go with my little brother to Louisiana in a couple of weeks. I'm not sure if they'd let me have a full week off of work yet. 2) I would like to have Sundays off and possibly work Wed. mornings if they'd allow me to, rather than wed. nights. We will see! I'm very excited about it though. If nothing came up, I was going to have to commute 45 min. away.

I hope you had the time of your life

I cannot remember the actual title of the song by Green Day, but the chorus leads to the phrase " I hope you had the time of your life." This song was my senior class's song at graduation. It's fitting that I heard it this morning on the radio because I went to this year's graduation at my High School. I had some close friends graduating this year.

As I walked through the crowd that gathered from the masses of people all meeting in a colossal group of graduates and families, there was this sentimental, country(ick) song playing that actually fit the moment. What was the moment? The graduates had just completed the graduating part, and now it was over. So all the families and friends crowd together in a giant mass and they just Be! It was a moment when it seemed like nothing really mattered other than people. It was the kind of moment that you might imagine in a book. The whole town, generations past and future, was gathered at this graduation to share in this momentus occasion. There were no expectations, no demands, no pre-conceived notions of how the night should go. It was just free and real. I haven't felt that in a long time and tonight I truly enjoyed living in a small town. Not to sound too cheesy, but a small town always has a soft spot in my heart. Not that I'd really like to live in one in the future, but there are some very beautiful sides of people that are allowed to be seen in a small town. Tonight, it was like no one really saw me, and that was perfect! I got to share the moment.

Oh my stars!

Last night I went to a lake with a group of acquaintences. It was about 11:00 pm and I lost myself in the vastness of the sky. As I soaked up the sky with all of its stars, I couldn't help but think about the verse in Psalms when it says that God has a name for every one of the stars. I long to know what a name of a star would sound like. Perhaps the names are only known and understood by God. There is something so comforting about looking into the sky. It's very childish of me to think this, but sometimes I feel like I'm looking at God if I look high enough. As if there are moments when it is just God and I, as I look up into his glorious creation. Wow.

Relief!

Tonight I spoke with my dad about the summer job situation. I felt a bit stressed because there is a job available to me, my old job at a fast food place, but it comes with the benefits of sexual harassment and corrupt management. The job pays well, and I need a job. I didn't want to take it, but was battling with the decision to suck it up and take advantage of the opportunity, or turn it down and be done with it. I mentioned some of the things that occurred at work in previous months to my mother. I guess she told my dad about it and he gave me the no-go on the job. That is a huge burden lifted!

Life feels a bit surreal. I've just come from out of a "bubble" environment and was thrown in the mix of real life. I came home to find that my brother has a warrant out for his arrest due to an unpaid court fine! I finally got to see him today, but it was only for a few brief minutes. It's not safe for him in a small town. His life is a mess. It's almost as if he is surrounded so deeply by "mess" that he is even starting to see new mess as a way to escape. He cannot see the fact that he will be sadly disappointed when it's all said and done. He just needs to be saved! Satan has such a hold on his life. But I have to remember that God is stronger!
My grandfather has two doctor's appointments this week. He will have a CAT scan run, and hopefully this will tell us how much time he has left to live. He has recently been diagnosed with scerosis of the liver. I found out after I got home from college for the summer. He is a Christian though! Isn't it funny how we tend to believe that just because we are christians, we should feel no pain when something like this happens?

This summer I'm going to study the sovereignty of God. I'm very excited at what I might learn through this! Speaking of God's sovereignty, I'm going job hunting tomorrow! My right eye is red and irritated tonight. I really hope that i haven't contracted Pink Eye! Not that I'd let it stop me from job hunting, but I just didn't want to have to deal with oozing issues in front of prospective employers. It doesn't exactly strike one as appealing.